Hey friends. I figured it was time to share an update on my mental health journey. If you recall back in November I shared that I was going through a rough fight with depression. The lows lasted through the end of the year. Since October, I had been visiting my therapist and physician to stay on top of my mental wellness. A couple week ago, I took a trip to Walt Disney World to participate in the Dopey Challenge. Something happened when I was in the airport waiting to leave for Orlando. I felt like a different person. I felt like I had come back to life.
I sat in the Virgin America loft and made some promises to myself. Those promises were:
- Maximize your alone time. Spend as much time as you can alone. Enjoy yourself.
- Don’t over commit yourself. It is okay to say no. (Thankfully I had friends watching out for me to ensure this didn’t happen so thanks Jill, Jen, and Teri).
- If you feel overwhelmed, stop and reset.
- If people ask why you are being distant…tell them it is part of your mental health journey.
I arrived in Disney World and did all of those things. I felt liberated. I felt free. I don’t think I was rude or dismissive to anyone, and if you felt I was I apologize.
While I was on this trip, I couldn’t stop smiling. I met up with some great people along the way. I think the balance of friends to solo time was PERFECT. I never felt overwhelmed. I never felt emotionally tired or drained. I never felt pressured. It was all just amazing and perfect. I felt refreshed and renewed. I couldn’t remember the last time I was THAT happy for that long of a period of time. So to everyone who had a hand in that, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
Depression and anxiety are daily battles. Some days are awesome. Some days aren’t. You have to take the good with the not-so-good. I choose life. I choose to be optimistic and positive yet realistic. I choose to spread love and happiness. It is much easier to be dark and draining. I tell people all the time that you are responsible for the energy you bring to others. I choose to be a source of encouragement and fun. Again, I will have my days when that just doesn’t feel possible. But lately, I have been on an emotional high and I want to stay that way. I’ll continue to surround myself with love and happiness. I will continue to honor my promises to myself. And we will all have an amazing time together! Thanks for being so supportive and awesome folks.