Lemonade

Can you believe it? 4 years ago I ran my first half marathon. A few months later, I decided to start a blog. The goal was just to share stories. Truthfully, I just got tired of always answering “How did your race go?”. So, I figured why not tell stories on a blog and people could go and read. I had no idea 4 years later what See Sharp Run would of turned into. I’ve rebranded by blog to the awesome platform it is now with so much help from friends like Fresh, Brian, and Becca. I’ve learned a lot. I’ve made some mistakes. I’ve inspired people. I’ve helped people. I’ve raised questions. Apparently, I’ve made quite an impact.

Enjoy a glass of #Lemonade with Sharpie as he celebrates his 4th anniversary of running Click To Tweet

You’re probably asking why I named this post Lemonade, right? This post is about to get REAL honest, so buckle up. I’m not holding any punches back.

My blog has not only become a place where I share stories, experiences, and products. It’s become a place of therapy for me. There is something freeing about having a space where you can write and elicit feedback from people who follow your journey. And let me just say, the vast majority of you that read this blog offer some incredible feedback, perspective, and encouragement. I read every single comment, and try to comment where and when I can. A few weeks ago, I wrote a post essentially about pressure and burn out. Every comment on that post was amazing. I received lot of “maybe you should try this.” or “be honest with yourself, it’s really ok” type of responses. These are responses that are constructive and helpful as I process. So I want to take a moment to thank you all.

I lost track of why I do what I do in the first place. And I don’t necessarily think I lost it, it got buried by distraction. I never started out wanting to be the fastest runner. CAN I be a fast runner? Certainly. Is that what I focused on? No. Do I enjoy running especially with people? Oh absolutely. I’ve had some of my best therapy sessions on the road or on the trails. There is something to be said for continuous improvement and being a better version of yourself. Being realistic about what that looks like and how you get there is the key. A journey is just that. A journey. Normally when you set out of a trip, you have a map and an idea of what you want to do. Realistic milestones. Things that make sense for  YOU. The only person putting pressure on myself is me. The rest of the noise is nothing more than an amplified version of the noise I created. This creates a series of events that aren’t generally positive for anyone, then you get lemons.

Allow me to continue aboard the honesty train. I was ready to shut this blog down. I had my phone in my hand and was ready to call my people and say close it down. I’m done. I had been battling a depression low since Boston (yeah I wasn’t myself there) and truthfully, I wasn’t sure this was doing me any good. I wanted to stop. Then something happened and you’ll probably laugh but it’s true…Beyonce gave us Lemonade.

When I watched the Lemonade visual on HBO I was moved. There was a particular visual and song which will be my favorite and honestly saved this space. The song is called “Freedom”. When I tell you I got OUT OF MY CHAIR when this song came on! Let me explain.

“Freedom” is about coming out on the other end of your situation and freeing yourself from the pain and negativity you have been buried under. It’s about breaking chains. It’s about standing on your feet stronger because you’ve gone through something rough. There is a line in the song where she says “I’m gonna keep running because winners don’t quit on themselves.”

This is the point where I received all of my life.

She, as usual, is right. Winners don’t quit. Look at the wonderful things I have created and contributed to. Look how many people I have touched. I’m allowed to have a bad day, a bad week, hell a bad month. But it’s about how you come out on the other end and quitting isn’t the way to do that. Same can be said for a race that doesn’t go your way. Same can be said for ANYTHING in life. So this blog is here to stay whether or not other folks think it should or not…but I don’t know those people and don’t really care what they think so…

All that to say, I am greatful, blessed, and honored to be in the position that I am in. To share, to engage, to represent. This has been lots of hard work. Far more smiles than frowns. But going forward, I’ll be doing exactly what I said I would do when I turned 30…stay accountable, have fun, and focus on self care. Not every race has to be a PR. If I want one, I’ll pick a race and train for it. Until then, I’ll enjoy running for the gift it is. I’ll enjoy the people and community that support that. I’ll smile and continue to inspire. I’ll continue to learn for every day. I’ll continue to make mistakes because humans do that. I’ll continue to learn from them. I’ll continue to be optimistic and realistic. I’ll continue to enjoy the Lemonade…instead of focusing on the mountain of perceived lemons.

Thank you to each and every one of you for your love and support and honesty over the years. It really does mean the world. Have a glass of lemonade. I can’t begin to do what I do without all of your support. And that is so real. Let’s celebrate and smile. Because today is a new day.

 

Freedom! Freedom! I can’t move
Freedom, cut me loose!
Singin’, freedom! Freedom! Where are you?
Cause I need freedom too!
I break chains all by myself
Won’t let my freedom rot in hell
Hey! I’ma keep running
Cause a winner don’t quit on themselves

30 Comments
  • Tara (regular_doc)
    May 2, 2016

    You rock my work Linz. Honestly! You say what you mean, and mean what you say. I hope that you can continue to find joy in running and if not, you find something else that puts that amazing smile on your face. Looking forward to more wisdom from you in the future!

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 2, 2016

      Thank you, Tara. I ran yesterday and felt amazing. The rush came back and I was smiling. Sometimes we find dark spots but the light is never to far away

  • Erica
    May 2, 2016

    Happy Runversary!!!! You are one of my favorites and I have enjoyed these past four years getting to know you!

  • Smitha - Running with SD Mom
    May 2, 2016

    You Complete Me!

  • Fancy Nancy
    May 2, 2016

    Well thank you Beyonce!!! You have inspired so many with your honesty and fabulous personality and I’m so glad you have decided to continue….being YOU!

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 2, 2016

      Thanks Nancy! No other way to be. I’m just going to be me and bring all of you that want to join the ride along with me. Beyonce knows what I need and when…she’s perfect.

  • Ivie
    May 2, 2016

    Love you Sharpie. You inspire many. AJ wouldn’t be AJ without all of the Linz advice and inspiration two years ago. You were a great inspiration to us and now, even better, a great friend. A race isn’t a race without a hug or selfie from our favorite unicorn. Thank you for always being YOU. THAT is why we love you.

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 2, 2016

      Y’all rock. You really do! Thanks for being so great and never stopping. Keep fighting!

  • Courtney Eat Pray Run DC
    May 2, 2016

    Love this – when I saw the post title I almost shouted “YASSSSS!” Keep doing you, friend. It was great to meet you briefly before the B.A.A. 5k a few weeks ago. 🙂

  • Christi
    May 2, 2016

    Wow! This brought tears to my eyes! I needed to hear this! Thank you Sharp!

  • Bain
    May 2, 2016

    Come join me in the “I run to hang out with people and pet the cute puppies!” section of life, my friend.

  • Christina
    May 2, 2016

    I remember the days of See Sharp Run (back when I was ‘scrinina,’ how times change) and looking up to you in so many ways… and then you land this post and f yeah. I’m still lookin’ up to you.

    Besides… life is better when there’s some tart and sour to go with all the sweetness. “PR juice” is usually a great pairing for lemons! Just sayin.

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 2, 2016

      The sour notes are what build character. If stuff is easy we don’t grow 🙂

  • Jenn
    May 2, 2016

    This was everything it needed to be. The positive feedback more than overshadows the haters who really don’t understand the struggle anyways. We come to this blog because we value your opinion and as you know I love your lack of filter. This space is for you. I’m just blessed to have been a part of this journey.

  • PavementRunner
    May 2, 2016

    You inspire the internet. FACTS.
    You do you do the best of your ability. FACTS
    We always have your back no matter what. FACTS.
    The world is a better place with you in it. FACTS.

  • Aliza Mooney
    May 3, 2016

    So glad you decided to stay with this Blog! I need my dose of Sharpie! No I don’t “know” you but your journey and how you keep it real inspire me to keep pushing forward! We all have rough patches. Keep your head up and keep being true to you. That’s what we love and keep coming back for! Blessings always.

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 3, 2016

      Thanks for the kind words, Aliza! More exciting things are on the horizon.

  • Lori Cunningham
    May 3, 2016

    You’re an inspiration!!! You’ll always have our BIDMC family; you are real and share the truth! Thankful to have met you!!! Save the date—2017 team
    Xoxo–lac

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 3, 2016

      Thank you Lori! I’ll certainly keep the save the date in mind 🙂 you guys are so lovely! I love Team BIDMC.

  • Valarie Dennis
    May 3, 2016

    Mr. Sharp,

    Being open and honest with yourself is hard. You are amazing and open. You welcome all of us to join running at any time in any way. As a newer, senior citizen runner, I love that I feel welcome by all of the runner community and no one ever asks what my pace is. Thank you for that as you were one of the 1st I met.
    Keep smiling, dancing and if you choose, running. We love you, not just the runner you😍

    • Sharp Endurance
      May 3, 2016

      Thank you Miss Valarie! It’s always such a pleasure to run into you and wave and say hello! You’re always so sweet! Keep on running!

  • Stuart
    May 3, 2016

    Mr Sharp, keep up the excellent work having followed your blog and twitter posts for the past few months you keep me inspired and no doubt the majority of your readers.

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